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Posted on:11/30/08 @ 10:53 pm
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im a pissed off person who hates incompetence. why? well that should be obvious. anyone who doesnt see the light, must be blind, so why waste time on a someone's handicap holding me back. im not them. it isnt my problem.

im pissed off for other reasons, and it is my problem, because this is my family, this is what ive always wanted, and these people make me feel happy, loved, and wanted....most of the time...we all have our ups and downs, but these fucking hormones that i have existed on since oh, say, june 2007 are driving me literally insane crazy. no one should have to deal with this, and especially not alone, but its very hard to not feel very alone, when no one else around you seems to get the point. im a very sad person. ive been at said 'sad point' for a very, very long time. its been at this extremely low point since about may 2005....symptoms include but are not limited to: uncontrollable crying, fits of rage and anger, insomnia, fatigue, fear of the unknown, difficulty making decisions, irritability, and lets throw in helplessness just for shits and giggles.

i love my babies, but i wish i had things that i could call my own, but i cant just go out and get a job, and even if i could just go out and get a job, i dont want some shitty waitress job, i want something fufilling and meaningful, something that impacts other people in a positive way that they will always remember. yeah, so, i set my standards high, but fuck dude, ive had time to do boring things, and im just ready for something better. I want my own money to spend on things. I hate asking for stuff all the time, or feeling like i want and need things, but i cant really do anything about because i just dont have the means. I can kind of catch a glimpse of how poor housewives felt before feminism when they were stuck doing the same menial tasks day after day with no appreciation because they didnt have a college education and their own way to do their own thing. They felt like they could just take the kids and leave their abusive spouses because they had no where to go and no money to do anything. i dont want to go anywhere, i just want to feel like i can accomplish things on my own without having to ask for help.

im just at this very vulnerable point in my life, where i cant do it on my own though, i have to have help, i need someone looking out for my and guiding me in the right direction and holding me accountable for the things i do, someone who will make sure i dont give up on myself. i was so sad when i left josh and being with ryan guthrie made everything worse, because he expected me to do everything on my own. i just want someone to baby me for a while, make me feel like im being taken care of and that i dont have to worry about anything anymore, so i can just relax and be happy and quit feeling like i owe everyone for everything they do for me. I want a few freebies just to keep myself moving and to feel like i dont have to do everything alone, that i could leave things in the hands of a capable other and not have to worry.

im so sick of fighting about dumb shit that leaves me in tears off in some other room all alone with no one to comfort me, making me feel like its all my fault because its not all my fault. i cant keep giving in and never really getting what i really what, which is resolution to the real problem at hand, not some mediocre bullshit that wont matter tomorrow, let alone ten minutes from now. Am I the only one who sees that we never really get to the heart of the matter? Is it too much to ask for help at this time for basic times, when its hurts so bad to do things the normal way. Wont someone take pity on me? Wont anyone stop to see the tears on my cheek are real, and the pain i go through it very much heartfelt, and that i ache inside from being so sad for so long and that i just want to get better and have for so long, but i dont want to do it on my own. i have no reason to do it just for me, but a thousand and one reasons to do it for my family.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How evrything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.
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Posted on:11/29/08 @ 05:50 pm
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yay, nin is coming again to B.C.

stoked, but i still havent got my tickets. pet and i will have to go buy some tomorrow me thinks.

yes yes yes.

meow.

kittins!

besides that Im tired, have to work till 9.30, could go to seattle, but i probably wont cause its with jay, and Im trying to not spend time with him, cause he's my ex!

im drinkin earl grey with almond malk.
i mean miilk.

"i only drink the finest breast milks"

this entry is batty.

k byes@!
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Posted on:11/28/08 @ 02:28 pm
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we are.  do we belong here?

we're all in jail, apparently BUT Mr Congressional Gag Order.


how did we all wake up in jail?  should anyone care? from all accounts there is NO escape.
we are all here for life.


It is a wonder that we woke up at ALL.  But we sure did wake up in jail with no freedom, each and every one of us Americans.   It almost makes you think that it's...time to fight, since that's how America got started in the first place...

..unless you were to squint at it all, you might conclude that that whole of the world is made out of dirty tricks; one hundred percent completely fabricated out of fabrications.
the things behind things

 
Wandering cult wrapped in white befuddles Japan
by Gary Schaefer (AP, May 26, 2003)
 For years, they have traveled the back roads of Japan in an all-white caravan, swathing their camps in white fabric. They say they are protecting a sick prophet from an invisible enemy and the world from Armageddon.

Most Japanese had never heard of the Pana Wave Laboratory cult until it rolled into this rural community in western Japan recently, transforming a secluded mountain road into a clinical white cocoon.

But as a police standoff began and pictures of the strange camp began dominating the television news, something seemed eerily familiar to many Japanese.

"The first thing I thought was, it's another Aum Shinrikyo," farmer Kanichi Sakai, standing at a police barricade near the group's camp. "It was so unreal I had to come see for myself."

A riveting event

The weeklong standoff was resolved with little more than a show of force and the issuing of parking tickets. But it riveted Japan and served as a reminder that cults such as Aum, which set up strongholds in the countryside and carried out a deadly nerve gas attack on Tokyo's subways in 1995, continue to thrive.

The timing of the standoff was almost as spooky as the white-draped landscapes.

Just days before, prosecutors closed their case against Aum's guru, Shoko Asahara, who reportedly ordered the subway gassing to provoke an apocalypse he predicted only his followers would survive. He faces the death penalty for the attack, which killed 12 and left thousands sick.

No link between Aum and Pana Wave is suspected, and the standoff was non-violent.

The caravan, believed to carry the group's ailing guru, has moved around western Japan since 1994. Before arriving here, about 160 miles west of Tokyo, it spent almost eight months on a desolate stretch of road in a neighboring state.

Seeking refuge

The cult says it seeks refuge from deadly electromagnetic waves generated by power lines and controlled by "left-wing elements." It believes white fabric helps neutralize the waves.

According to cult watchers and media reports quoting police sources, Pana Wave was founded under a different name around 1977 by Yuko Chino, a self-proclaimed prophet who preaches a blend of Christianity, Buddhism and New Age doctrines.

The group reportedly owns property in several rural areas and once claimed several thousand members. Estimates of its membership range from several hundred to 1,200.

Pana Wave says attacks by electromagnetic waves have left Chino, who is believed to be in the most heavily guarded van in the caravan, with terminal cancer.

Her death, according to cult literature, would deprive humanity of its only hope for salvation.

Chino has prophesied that a 10th planet approaching Earth will bring massive earthquakes, giant tidal waves and other cataclysmic changes as early as this summer.

"This is a cult in its terminal phase," said Taro Takimoto, an attorney who is part of a national network advising cult victims.

"Its delusions are getting deeper, and it appears less concerned about run-ins with the outside world."

 



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Ring over the Equator
What satellite Ginga stumbled upon was an electromagnetic "mirror," a
ionized reflector for transmission of low-frequency beams, which was a part
of the Russian EMW arsenal. The electromagnetic technology has been used to
alter the climate in the Northern Hemisphere to lessen the economic cost of
Russia's severe winters. It is also used for advanced global communications,
for anti-missile defenses and to induce earthquakes. In other words, it is
extremely sophisticated and dangerous technology, wide open for abuse in the
wrong hands. A similar system was patented by Bernard Eastlund, former chief
of the U.S. Atomic Energy Commission, which forms the core of the U.S.
Navy's HAARP program in Alaska. (V2, the companion article provides an
overview on this technology.)
If this artificially ionized belt acts like a mirror, then electromagnetic
waves sent from ground stations in the Southern Hemisphere would be
reflected back to a roughly equal longitude and a roughly equidistant
latitude in the Northern Hemisphere, and vice versa. For example, to change
the weather patterns on the steppes of Kazaldistan (Nikita Khruschev's
hare-brained scheme was to grow wheat there; after initial failures, it is
now one of the world's top breadbaskets, thanks to milder weather), one
would have to place a EM transmitter in the vicinity of French-controlled
Kerguelen Island, south of the Indian Ocean.
The ability to focus the EM waves, however, is the most technically
difficult problem, which can be solved by using two intersecting beams of
scalar energy to create an interference pattern, that is, a third standing
wave. This standing wave could be applied in different formats to create
various electromagnetic effects or to ionize the atmospheric gases to create
deadly plasma. This would account for a diversity of shapes and light
effects, that is, UFOs, seen by many thousands of observers around the world
that cannot be attributed to passing planes and other physical objects.
Since KAL 007 was ultimately downed by a EM pulse weapon, after it was
crippled by a small air-to-air rocket, Japanese scientists could conclude
that there is a major EMW station located on the Kamchatka Peninsula -- and
that was the real reason for the KAL 007 overflight. The point in the
Southern Hemisphere that corresponds to Kamchatka is South Australia, which
Kiyohide Hayakawa visited in vain (on a bogus uranium exploration mission)
on his second visit Down Under. Eventually, Hayakawa homed in on West
Australia, a location that would indicate he was in contact with an EM base
closer to Russia's Manchurian and Mongolian borders, or inside North Korea.
This scalar interferometer technology, reflected off the ionosphere mirror,
is presumably what Asahara meant by "star-reflector cannon."
Aum's EM Lab
As Ginga was gathering evidence on Russian atmospheric irradiation, a
graduate student at Osaka Prefectural University studied the data. One of
Japan's top X-ray astronomers, specializing in stellar X-ray emissions,
Hideo Murai was also a member of the yoga training institute that would
become Aum Shimikyo. His inquisitive mind, spirituality and desire to
protect humanity with science was backed by immense genius -- an IQ
reputedly higher than Einstein's.
Murai must have known that the mystery of an artificial radiation belt
around the Equator would have devastating consequences for humankind. But he
was enough of a scientist to know that to fight this sort of global madness,
one had to comprehend the underlying science. He was also a good technician.
His professor marveled at how Murai wrote software to crunch his
electromagnetic data inside a laptop computer.
Ginga's findings would confirm Murai's suspicions that influential
astrophysicists and nuclear physicists in the West were under the influence
of occultic ideas, as promoted by several fraternal orders. He accompanied
Shoko Asahara to the pyramids of Egypt in July 1987, and the Guru reassured
him that ancient psychic phenomena and electromagnetic technology were
inextricably linked. With his new understanding, Murai would eventually
develop the now infamous electro-studded head gear that calmed brain waves,
invent shields against EM weapons and would himself attempt to build the
ultimate weapon for the Final War.



THE 2ND CHAPTER. (HOBEN) PROSE FORM

Myoho renge kyo — The wonderful Law of the Lotus Sutra
Ho ben pon dai ni: Skillful Ways
Ni Ji Se Son — There the World Honored One
Ju San Mai — Quietly came up
An Jo Ni Ki — From his samadhi
Go Shari Hotsu — And said to Shariputra:
Sho Bu' Chi E — The wisdom of the Buddhas
Jin Jin Mu Ryo — Is profound and cannot be measured
Go Chi E Mon — Its gate is hard to understand
Nange Nan Nyu — And difficult to enter.
Is Sai Sho Mon — No Shravaka-Disciple
Hyaku Shi Butsu — Or Self-taught buddha
Sho Fu No Chi — Can understand it.
Sho I Sha Ga — Why is that? (because!)
Butsu Zo Shin Gon —the [present] Buddhas attended on many
Hyaku Sen Man Noku — hundreds of thousands of billions
Mu Shu Sho Butsu — Of Buddhas,
Jin Gyo Sho Butsu — And practiced the many teachings
Mu Ryo Do Ho — Of those Buddhas bravely and energetically
Yu Myo Sho Jin — To their far-flung fame till they attained
Myo Sho Fu Mon — The profound Law
Jo Ju Jin Jin — Which you've (probably) never heard before,
Mi Zo U Ho — And also because they are exposing
Zui Gi Sho Setsu — The Law according to the capacities
I Shu Nan Ge — Of all living beings a way that the intention is hard to understand
Shari Hotsu — Shariputra!
Go Ju Jo Butsu I Rai — Since I became Buddha, I also
Shu Ju In Nen — Have been stating various teachings
Shu Ju Hi Yu — With different stories of previous lives,
Ko En Gon Kuyo — Various parables, and various similes.
Mu Shu Ho Ben — I have been leading all living beings
In Do Shu Jo — With countless expedients
Ryo Ri Sho Jaku — In order to save them from materialism,
Sho I Sha Ga — Because I have the power
Nyo Rai Ho Ben — To employ skills,
Chi Ken Hara Mitsu — And the power to perform
Kai I Gu Soku — The Paramita (reached goal of wisdom) of insight
Shari Hotsu — Shariputra!
Nyo Rai Chi Ken —The insight of the Tathagatas
Ko Dai Jin Non — Is wide and deep.
Mu Ryo Mu Ge — They have all the [states of mind
Riki Mu Sho I — Towards] countless [living beings],
Zen Jo Ge Da's' San Mai — unchecked [intelligence], powers,
Jin Nyu Mu Sai — Fearlessness, dhyana-concentrations,
Jo Ju Is Sai — Liberations and samadhis. They entered
Mi Zo U Ho — Deep into no limits, and attained the Law which you've never heard before
Shari Hotsu — Shariputra!
Nyo Rai Nyo Shu Ju Fun Betsu —The Tathagatas divide the Law
Gyo Ses Sho Ho — Into various teachings, and state
Gon Ji Nyu Nan — Those teachings so gently and skillfully
Ek Ka Shu Shin — That living being are delighted.
Shari Hotsu — Shariputra!
Shu Yo Gon Shi — In short, the Buddhas attained
Mu Ryo Mu Hen — The countless teachings
Mi Zo U Ho — Which you've never heard before
Bus Shitsu Jo Ju — No more
Shi — Will I say
Shari Hotsu — Shariputra
Fu Shu Bu Setsu — Because the Law
Sho I Sha Ga — attained by the Buddhas
Bus Sho Jo Ju — Is the highest Truth.
Dai Ichi Ke U — Rare [to hear] and hard
Nan Ge Shi Ho —To understand.
Yui Butsu Yo Butsu — Only the Buddhas attained
Nai No Ku Jin — The highest Truth, that is

Sho Ho Jis So — The Reality of All Things
Sho I Sho Ho — In regards to:
Nyo Ze So — Their appearances (form? shape? size? ) as such,
Nyo Ze Sho — Thier natures (essence) as such,
Nyo Ze Tai — Their embodiments (present incarnation) as such,
Nyo Ze Riki — Their powers (potentiality also possibilities) as such,
Nyo Ze Sa — Their activities (function or role) as such,
Nyo Ze In — Their primary causes (obvious cause) as such,
Nyo Ze En — Their environmental causes (process) as such,
Nyo Ze Ka — Their effects (latent or hidden effect) as such,
Nyo Ze Ho — Their requital (final outcome or return) as such,
Nyo Ze Hon Ma' Ku Kyo To — And the combination of these [factors] as such (over and over again)

THE 16TH CHAPTER. (JURYO) VERSE FORM

Myo ho renge kyo - The Sutra of the Lotus of the Wonderful Law - 16th Chapter.
nyo rai ju ryo hon, dai ju roku - the duration of Life of the Tathagata (Many Treasures).
Ji ga toku bu'rai -- Since I became a Buddha
Sho kyo sho ko shu -- It is many hundreds of thousands
Mu ryo hyaku sen man -- Of billions of trillions
Oku sai a so gi -- Of asankhyas of aeons (many many years).
Jo sep po kyo ke -- For the past countless aeons
Mu shu oku shu jo -- I have been stating the Dharma
Ryo nyu o butsu do -- To hundreds of millions of beings
Ni rai mu ryo ko -- To lead them into the Way to Buddhahood
I do shu jo ko -- In order to save [perverted] people,
Ho ben gen ne han -- I expediently show my Nirvana to them
Ni jitsu fu metsu do -- But In reality I never pass away.
Jo ju shi sep po -- I always live here and preach the Law.
Ga jo ju o shi -- Although I always live here
I sho jin zu riki -- With perverted people
Ryo ten do shu jo -- I disappear from their eyes
Sui gon ni fu ken -- By my supernatural powers
Shu ken ga metsu do -- When they see me seemingly pass away,
Ko ku yo shari -- they make offerings to my relics
Gen kai e ren bo -- they adore and admire me,
Ni sho katsu go shin -- they cecome devout, upright and gentle,
Shu jo ki shin buku -- And wish to see me
Shichi jiki I nyu nan -- With all their hearts
Is shin yok ken butsu -- Even at the cost of their lives.
Fu ji shaku shin myo -- So I reappear on Mt. Sacred Vulture peak
Ji ga gyu shu so -- With all my people (community/sangha)
Ku shutsu ryo ju sen -- And say to them:
Ga ji go shu jo -- I always live here.
Jo zai shi fu metsu -- I'll never be extinct.
I ho ben rik ko -- But I show my extinction expediently
Gen u metsu fu metsu -- Although I never pass away.
Yo koku u shu jo -- I also state the highest Law
Ku gyo shin gyo sha -- To the living beings of other worlds
Ga bu o hi chu -- If they respect me, they believe me,
I setsu mu jo ho -- And wish to see me.
Nyo to fu mon shi -- But you've never heard this;
Tan ni ga metsu do -- So you thought that I passed away
Ga ken sho shu jo -- I see [perverted] people sinking
Mo tsu zai o ku kai -- In a sea of sufferings.
Ko fu I gen shin -- Therefore, I disappear from their eyes
Ryo go sho katsu go -- And cause them to admire me.
In go shin ren bo -- Whey they adore me,
Nai shitsu I sep po -- I reappear and expound the Law to them.
Jin zu riki nyo ze -- I can do this by my supernatural powers.
O a so gi ko -- For countless aeons
jo zai ryo ju sen -- I lived on Mt. Sacred Eagle
Gyu yo sho ju sho -- And in all other delay.
Shu jo ken ko jin -- [Perverted] people think:
Dai ka sho sho ji -- 'This world is in a great fire.
Ga shi do an non -- The end is coming.'
Ten nin jo ju man -- but really this world of mine is peaceful.
On rin sho do kaku -- It is filled with gods and good people.
Shu ju ho sho gon -- Its gardens, forests, and palaces
Ho ju ta ke ka -- Are adorned with treasures;
Shu ju sho yu raku -- Gem trees have fruits and flowers;
Sho ten gyaku ten ku -- Living beings are enjoying themselves;
Jo sas shu gi gaku -- And the gods are beating heavenly drums,
U man da ra ke -- Pouring music and mandarava blossoms
San butsu gyu dai shu -- On the Buddha and all assembled beings.
Ga jo do fu ki -- My land is pure and indestructible.
Ni shu ken sho jin -- But [perverted] people think:
U fu sho ku no -- ˜It is full of sorrow, fear and pain,
Nyo ze shitsu ju man -- and will soon burn away.'
Ze sho zai shu jo -- Because of their evil karmas,
I aku go In nen -- these sinful people cannot hear even the names
Ka a so gi ko -- Of the Three Treasures
Fu mon san bo myo -- For countless aeons
Sho u shu ku doku -- To those who have accumulated merits
Nyu was shichi jiki sha -- Who are gentle and upright,
Sok kai ken ga shin -- And see me living here,
Zai shi ni sep po -- stating the Dharma,
Waku ji I shi shu -- I say: ˜The duration
Setsu butsu ju mu ryo -- Of my life is immeasurable.'
Ku nai ken bus sha -- To those who see me after a long time,
I setsu butsu nan chi -- I say: ˜It's hard to see a Buddha.'
Ga chi riki nyo ze -- This I can do by the power of my wisdom.
Eko sho mu ryo -- The light of my wisdom knows no limit.
Ju myo mu shu ko -- The duration of my life is forever
Ku shu go sho toku -- I obtained this by ages of practices.
Nyo to u chi sha -- All of you, wise men!
Mot to shi sho gi -- Have no doubts about this!
To dan ryo yo jin -- Remove your doubts, have no more!
Butsu go jip pu ko -- Because the Buddha's words are true, not false.
Nyo I zen ho ben -- The doctor, sent a man skilfully
I ji o shi ko -- To tell his perverted sons
Jitsu zai ni gon shi -- Of his death so he could to cure them,
Mu no sek ko mo -- Was not accused of falsehood through living
Ga yaku I se bu -- Likewise, I am the parent of this world.
Ku sho ku gen sha -- I save all living beings from suffering.
I bon bu ten do -- Because they are perverted, I say
Jitsu zai ni gon metsu -- That I pass away, even though I do not.
I jo ken ga ko -- If they always see me,
Ni sho kyo shi shin -- They will become arrogant and no morals
Ho itsu jaku go yaku -- And cling to the five human desires
Da o aku do chu -- Till they fall into evil paths (Hell, Hunger and Animality).
Ga jo chi shu jo -- I know all living beings,
Gyo do fu gyo do -- Who practice the Way and who do not.
Zui o sho ka do -- Therefore I expound various teachings
I ses shu ju ho -- According to the abilities of all.
Mai ji sa ze nen -- I am always thinking:
I gar ryo shu jo -- 'How can I cause all living beings
Toku nyu mu jo do -- To enter into the highest Way
Soku jo ju bus shin -- So they can quickly become Buddhas?



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I CAN SEE WHAT MANY OTHERS CAN'T:
the things behind things







the persistence of memory

the lugubrious game

why, why, why...

we ask again, why?

if artists forsake inspiration for the dollar

some can see an almost...it's mathematical,

it's exponential, something seems to be lost. but it is not lost:

it simply relocates:

goes to where it can breathe.  to where it can enjoy

natural exhalation and

inspiration...this is the identifying feature

of a million pop dispensers

and a million gray areas where something is almost happening

copies of copies of copies.

evolution is created.  there are ephiphanies

strange wonderments

creative intelligence, and the avant garde

is somewhere doing what it does

where it cannot be sabotaged by the envious. if only.

why, why why?  what a waste, if only...

we ask again and again, why.

futility, shouts envy,

the sworn envy of love,

inspiration and caring.









 





"i love independent media. especially when it's kinda dirty, ya
know...kinda like..an eargasm...you do know what an eargasm is don't
you?  oh, cataleptik will tell you...he loves indie as much as i
do. and i really love indie...yeah."






cataleptik's

mihoshi kuramitsu fan fiction is coming to kick everyone in the ass.  really, really HARD with a BOOT. it's just that way...there's nothing anyone can do about it!

 

the dirty trick of cataleptik's mihoshi fan fiction is that cat writes mihoshi as someone who pretends to be stupid all the time.

you have to be really really SMART to fool all those people into thinking that you are stupid, and still get that asshat Kagato, memory thieving mad scientist that he is, in the right place at the right time

so that macho sword kid tenchi_strikes.jpgcan kayo him.

one thing that people don't understand about TENCHI UNIVERSE is that Kagato's secret power is: erase memory.  thus:  he was able to decieve EVERYONE -- i mean, well, you will have to read the stories, won't 'cha?

 

 

 

also, Only Ayeka knows Mihoshi's secret...that's fun too...

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"Oh yes, she is a complete moron.  Right."


 

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i will love him forever. am i a fool or what?

so much skill, so much beauty...no waste of energy,

just grace and fluid magic love emanating

in every direction, especially the one that counts.

i love him so much i forget where I begin. that's real love...

i know it is.

and he barely knows I am alive.






 





















 


 Taika Coup












The Soga clan began to intensify its political power and ruled politics
as despots.


 Nakano-oeno-Oji and Nakatomino-Kamatari were planning to
defeat the Soga clan around 642.




In 645 they killed Sogano-Iruka who was the biggest power of the court,
and the next day they killed Sogano-Emishi, father of Iruka.
Nakano-oeno-Oji declared his uncle Emperor Kotoku and he himself became
crown prince. This era he called Taika.




 

The basic policy was proclaimed in January, 646. The four
articles were to abolish private possession of land and people, to
install local government, to give land to people, to establish a fixed
tax system. The purpose was to abolish the existing private land system
and to establish centralism based on common possession of land and
people.



This political reform was due to the fact that Japan had to enhance and
strengthen the power of the nation in order to catch up with the
contemporary international situation by adopting the advanced Chinese
legislation.



Accordingly, people of the lower class were released from tyranny and
were pleased. On the other hand, the fact that the political reform
destroyed clans means that temples lost their patron, as all temples
were privately established and managed in those days. For example,
maintenance cost of towers and pagodas, and money for food and clothing
which priests needed. Resolution of those problems must have been
seriously argued among people then. New central government thought that
to destroy temples would cause the drop of public cultural level, and
so compensated financial support to some influential temples. The
atmosphere to build national temples occurred at the same time, and
seemingly temples remarkably developed on this occasion.


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I know i havent been on here in like a million years, but.. as i was walking to the lovely library i was thinking that i should write down about this lovely diet i am on.

and its bad at first, fuck me, it is.

but now im used to it and i dont know, i feel kind of really bad doing it because i know that its not healthy.

I usually eat small things a day or so.. and when i think i eat to much,(i dont).. well dont think so anyways.. i dont eat for another day or so.. but i do drink water, alot of it, and i smoke cigarettes, and when they are supposed to block the hunger, let me just say it takes time.


I made some eggs and toast for me and my brother this morning, and i was really hungry, and i ate it, and i wish i didnt because i feel very fat. well i am fat, but whatever.

Im only writing this down because ive dropped a jean size in less than two months.
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Posted on:11/25/08 @ 12:51 pm
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Bleh.

Yeah, that's it, just bleh.

So what if I haven't written here in 8 months. Shut up.
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Posted on:11/23/08 @ 06:16 pm
Subject: holiday plans n such
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well. its sunday! I had an eventful day today. I got to sleep in until 12:30, got up and went to fazolis for a late lunch. I checked out Barnes and Nobles and Borders for a book I wanted, but nothing matched up to my standards. Went to Once Upon A Child, and decided I would return there in the future. Lilly has a lot of clothes I can sell them in exchange for new things. We looked at strollers and car seats, but have still yet to decide on anything we like. I got her these new bottles with liners in them, so you dont have to wash them out every time, just the nipple part and it ended up leaking all over her while she was sleeping in the car on the way to Ryan's Uncle Bryan's house yesterday. Him and Dave and their family were having a pre-Thanksgiving dinner. Which I thought was a freaking great idea, just to get it out of the way and not and it seemed like it would be a lot less stressful. Everything they has was great. I am cooking a roast in the oven right now, and it smells great. Bryan wants to start saving money for Lilly and his other nephews for college, I was thinking how very sweet, and we mentioned that one of the presents we wanted to get her for Christmas was a toy chest, and he offered to get pick it up for her (stealing all my great ideas!) I plan to get a real Christmas tree this year and stick it downstairs. It's been years since I've gotten a real one and this year such feels so appropriate since we are out in the woods in a log cabin. Who knows where we will be next year :(

At the bookstore we did buy a train made of blocks pieced together for Lilly's Christmas. We got some clothes and a dress for her to wear for Thanksgiving at the kid's store. Im gonna wait to buy more things until I sort out all her old clothes that don't fit anymore. I've got a WHOLE list of shit to buy for Dinner on Thursday, because a WHOLE list of people are attending. I will be busy all day Wednesday cooking, and then Im just gonna let Karen have the kitchen on Thursday (no use fighting in a 2x5 area for space)One turkey will be made on Wednesday, Ryan is gonna fry another one on Thursday, Karen is baking a ham, I am baking three different kinds of pie, plus the many side dishes will be a somewhat collaborative effort. Karen, Ryan's mom thinks that since I am making pumpkin pie from scratch, that it will be OK for the baby to eat because it's "natural" .... This kind of thinking shifts itself to each new food that she tries to give my child. Once, I said it was OK that she have a taste of Ryan's sister's birthday cake, since it was a special occasion. Lilly comes back to me with her mouth covered in frosting and her outfit stained blue .... I tell Karen that I try to feed her organically and I want to make her baby food (the recipe is always the same HAHA, steam, puree, cool, serve!). I've never liked the idea of feeding her from some jar. I just dont get why she thinks its OK to impose her will on how I want MY child to be fed. And my whole train of thought is to do this, until she gradually becomes old enough to make her own decisions about what she puts into her body. Until then, I want her to be as pure as possible. Butter, salt, cow's milk, sugar, are things little babies just shouldnt get started on. And I feel like once you give them a little, you keeping caving in and caving in each time until those things become diet staples, but if you kept their presense minimal throughout her life, she would just become accustomed to a diet of healthier food, and make better lifestyle choices. Of course, she's gonna have cake and eat it too and thats great, everyone needs to satisfy their sweet tooth. I just want her to know the consequences of letting a bad thing get way out of hand. I know Karen gives her all kinds of things I wouldn't necessarily give her when I am not around and it irks me!

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Posted on:11/21/08 @ 08:16 pm
Subject: pizzas, pastas, and fucking phone calls.
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holy shit, fucking busy night at work.

im kinda like stressed the fuck out, but im gettin 'er done.

this one yoga practising zen woman i used to work with before at an equally stressful job, she gave me some words of wisdom before..

they went as follows:

"its only danishes, muffins and coffee Carly".

haha, i like how that puts everything into perspective.

its not real life, no ones life is at stake.
Its just pizza, pastas, and phone calls.

Its just that you want to do your best, and sometimes things get hectic, at any job, at any school etc.
but when it all comes down to it, its really not life or death.
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anyways, Im doing ok.
I have all multiple dates.
i only really like one guy though.

its weird.
i get scared, but hes so chill.

and blonde! haha naturally, silly.

oh, i got my hair done today, i took colour inspiration from the bee eater.



fuckin looks sweeet !

wish i could show you a picture, but my camera has been broken since hawaii.

filming is almost done at the shop.
i can't wait to see the rest of the episodes.
yeehaw.

hope all is well.

ps. i dont really like christmas that much
xo
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Posted on:11/20/08 @ 10:11 pm
Subject: late nights, early mornings
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I'm typing from my iPhone. This sucks. I've been working like a slave for the past month or more. A couple of nights I have worked until 2 and that's with coming in at 830am. It's so hard on me and I can't even complain. I consider it early when I leave at 8. I'm so burnt out. I'm trying not to complain about it. Jim and I argue sometimes because of it and I get his side. But what am I going to do? I can't quit now with the economy like this. Then again if I get laid off which is a possibility because of the markets. We bottomed out at around $49 a share today which is crazy. I think the company is going to go private if we go below $40/share. If they have enough capital to buy their stick back that is.

I am going to Atlanta for Thanksgiving. I don't really want to becuase there are going to be so many people there and I haven been feeling particularly social but whatever. Tickets have been bought.

Jim is coming with me so it will be better.

The fact that he's coming is a huge deal to me because he is meeting most of my family on dads side. It's like I'm telling them that this is the guy I'm with and this is real.

A coworker and I got to talking about Muss and why we broke up and she told me that she was her husband's mistress in college and how she befriended the girl for years all the while sleeping win him. And I felt so angry although I shouldn't have. I mean they're married now so there was clearly something there. But what a horrible way to go about the whole thing. I've mad my mistakes but I would never be someonea mistress for years.

Oh I'm currently in a cab on the way home from work by the way.

So yeah how do people do it? I don't know.

But anyway, jimmy got his suit for the renewal of vows ceremony that my aunt is having the day after thanksgiving. He's going to look so hot in it. His tie is so cool.

My stomach hurts.

We are staying at the Westin in Marietta next week I think. It looks pretty nice. We'll see how it goes.

I'm so exhausted. It will be nice to go home to him.
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